It’s been one of those crazy weeks around here where I feel like I can’t get anything done. No wonder.  Baby Boy #3 was born on March 3rd, and our 2 other littles have been fighting a virus for nearly just as long.  My mom is here helping me soften the blow of 3 kids 3 and under until our part-time nanny starts next Monday.

I am so excited to have help with the kids I can hardly contain myself.  For the first time ever I will actually have time to go to the gym, read, and put my heart into blogging – during daylight hours when I still have energy to think.  I used to put the kids to bed and then mold myself into the couch for an hour before hitting the sac.  It’s time to put myself first for once, and it doesn’t feel selfish like I thought it would.  I need to fill up my tank or there will be nothing left to give to my partner or kids anyway.

My partner and I have been wading through the waters of reconciliation and personal development for the past 3 weeks.  It will be a long road ahead, though a road worth traveling.  If this detour has taught me anything, it’s just how much I want, need, and love my family.  They’re where I belong and where my love thrives.

I want to feel clarity.  I want to feel grounded.  I want to feel elegant.  I want to feel ecstatic joy in every moment.  I want to feel love, belonging, and connection down to my core, and I want to feel engaged and inspired.

The next step is writing down and DOING three things that you can do today, this week, and this quarter to generate these feelings.  And naming three people to collaborate with who help me to feel this way.  You can write in your journal all that you want, but unless you take action, those words aren’t worth the paper they’re written on.  I am so excited to put these feelings into action.

So, today I started with putting on makeup and drinking green juice to make me feel elegant.  I vowed to put in quality time with each of my 3 boys.  I painted with my 3 year old, snuggled and put together puzzles with my 1 year old, and looked into my newborn’s eyes instead of reading while nursing.  I was present.  And lastly, as soon as I settle the newborn for the 100th time, I will meditate and ground myself, shower my heart in pink light, and have some quality time with husband.  Thank you Danielle!